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Well I see no one has updated or posted here in a while but I got a question for all of you millitary people out there... Expecially the males...

My BF is a reservist but was called to active duty to go to Iraq in Sept. Did anyone start drifting away from loved ones before youleft... I hear it from the Gf's point of view all the time but I don't want their oppinion. IT is all the same. HE is gone training now and will visit in over a montha nd a half for about a week then he is gone again. I didn't get to say goodbye because his family took him away for the last week and a half he was home. We live like a block away from eachother and he didn't even stop by and was acting really weird the last time I saw him... Is there any way that I can help keep him from drifting? Should I just let him be? I feel at a loss. He is really one to shut off and never (or damn near impossibly) open up again... I am so worried that we are going to drift apart and there is nothing I can do about it... He means the world and more to me and I don't want to push him away but I don't want him to do it himself... He did it when he went to basic and that was hard enough... It took 11 months (and more) to get him to be himself again... I love him and I know that this is going to be harder on him then me so I want him to know he can talk to me but it is hard when he stops listening... I know he loves me... it is this warm way of looking at me that gives me hope but that is as close to opening up as he has been lately... Not that I mind just being held but he seems blank and sad, lonley even. Why should he be lonley when I would do anything for him... He would die for his country and I would die for him... I know it is so a basic saying but I mean it!!! I'm at a lost and I don't have much time left to do anything... What should I do? I am asking you because most of you probably know whatever it is going through his head and maybe what I can do to help... Please I am desperate! I don't know where to turn, if you guys can't help then no one can. I love him, you got to know that, I can't let him go away emotionally as well...
I know it sounds petty but I just worry about him...
I appreciate anything you can tell me!
Thank you and God Bless!
~Ree Ree~
Current Mood: intimidatedintimidated
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From:being_a_beginin
Date:June 29th, 2006 10:39 pm (UTC)
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Thanks... I guess that is what is going on... I just wish that I had something that i could do about it ya know... I love him and everything... Life is so difficult and everything now, I hate adulthood and I hate the thought of RJ leaving but I am proud and sad all in one... I guess maybe I just have to sit back and let this fan out a bit... I just don't know...
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